I’ve recently reopened my dream folder on my computer and have had some interesting ideas spring forth. Before I can allow myself to feel comfortable with the dream, I need to explore why another model of it failed. We were successful in our mission. We excelled at peer to peer groups, financial assistance, and helping…
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Contemplations
Sitting here full of contemplations, Mind ticking through file after file, Stacks of discarded memories hover, Floating about the ethereal regions of far off memory, Grasping at strings, Attempting to fill the gaps with empty boxes, Imaginative speculations leading to paranoid delusions, This or that, tit for tat, Crazily spelunking down cavern walls, Deeper into…
Old Haze
Old haze visits these days, Spaced out on meds, Returning to normal routine, Old haze visits these days, Feeling the pull of lethargy, Feeling the push of sleepy hollow, Old haze visits these days, Restful and whimsical dreams, Fill hollow between the ear balls, Old haze visits these days.
Spinning Cycles
Heart and guts on the table, Tears and eyes crying wide shut, Outside thrusts inside, While life spins insanely, Circles turn while cycles repeat, Ultimate sacrifice set before the gods, Insanity run wild as a beast in the field, Tearing through life, Charging at the ones once loved, Anger flows while fear overflows, Tears, tons…
Judging Rage
Look into my world, Hear my words, Swirl with me on the hurricane winds, Tear out my eyes, Eyes, unclean in the turbulance, Destruction looms over volatile hills, Crumbling mountain tops tilt, Georges swallowing me, Into the abyss I swirl, In the turbulent hell, Its swallows me. Violence and shame, Beating me into the ground,…
First Time I Noticed My Mental Health
This will be short. I often try to identify when things started to go askew in my mind. I remember at the age of 10 having a strong realization of how alone I was. It was an extremally powerful emotion that I had to work through in the moment. The feeling was validated for years…
Am I?
Am I the only one that hears the screams, Am I the only one that sees the light streak by, Am I the only one that knows what it is like to be trapped, Am I the only one that feels the whispers on the neck?
Delve Into Swinging Emotions: Exploring My Bipolar Symptoms
Today was a busy timeline of emotional swings. I felt anger, joy, sadness, free, hyper active, slow and dull, while being nervous and shaking from time to time. I’ve come to learn from this cycle that I may be on the upswing to become manic which with as bad as this emotional tornado has been…
Depression feelings
I feel bogged down by exhaustion I feel better off alone. I feel I’m lost. I feel indecisive. I feel like a man lost at sea. I feel paranoid . I feel sad. I feel grief. I feel less joy from everything that gives me joy I feel an inability to be a self starter….
UNDERSTANDING BI-POLAR SYMPTOMS
I have heard a lot of people say that, “I am bi-polar,” or “… depressed,” etc… Instead of defining the disease, they own it as a part of themselves. A better approach would be to say, “I have bi-polar,” etc… The ability to separate the two helps with self-esteem and first impressions. Negativity surrounds mental…
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