This will be short. I often try to identify when things started to go askew in my mind. I remember at the age of 10 having a strong realization of how alone I was. It was an extremally powerful emotion that I had to work through in the moment. The feeling was validated for years to come and grew more powerful and developed in depression, anxiety, tension headaches, late nights being awake for days in a row, reorganizing my entire room full of heavy wood furniture late at night, going on long random runs, feeling super powerful, spending money, and many others. But, I digress, 10 was the year that things started on their journey towards recovery.