COPING MECHANISMS, WHATS YOURS?

It amazes me how depression kills my creativity and productivity. I wanted to take a moment and thank anyone who views, likes, or follows what I create. You all encourage me through those dark times. I follow the advice of author Patrick Ruthfuss. He once said in a VLOG (paraphrased), ‘if you write something, write…

Delve Into Swinging Emotions: Exploring My Bipolar Symptoms

Today was a busy timeline of emotional swings. I felt anger, joy, sadness, free, hyper active, slow and dull, while being nervous and shaking from time to time. I’ve come to learn from this cycle that I may be on the upswing to become manic which with as bad as this emotional tornado has been…

Closet

Duo face intersecting my life, One way in closets, Another way outdoors, Can’t live in either lifestyle, Nothing makes sense, Behind closed doors I see myself in one light, Outdoors in another, Unable to bring them together, No sense in my upbringing, Religion screams in one year, and 1950’s training in another, Can’t move past…

Pushing Mountains

Post heartbreak, tired and broken, Finding everything taken, Empty, lost, abused, excused, Everyone around you unamused. Pushing mountains easier than moving on, Content dulled, ill amusement, Casting net, catching it on, Jagged rocks, jutting like my life under cement. Time moved past, Love lost, Time spent, Seems like such a waste.

SITS UPON A CHEST

Depression sits on the chest, As sinking swamp sucks in the wreckless, Justice served on interloping thoughts, Saddening, deepening, trembling free reality, Paradox in between knotted rows, Knitted into being by Destiny, Twisting us down undefined paths, Twisting our future and darkening our past, Depression sits on the chest.

Depression feelings

I feel bogged down by exhaustion I feel better off alone. I feel I’m lost. I feel indecisive. I feel like a man lost at sea. I feel paranoid . I feel sad. I feel grief. I feel less joy from everything that gives me joy I feel an inability to be a self starter….

SLEEPLESS

Light fades from the world People fade into dreamland Staring at the ceiling in frustrated pastures, Counting endless sheep in sleepless fields.

BOXING WITH DEPRESSION

Melancholy hits harder than Mike Tyson on steroids taking pills disipates the useless musings that pit me against the world

REVENGE

“Death and life are forces of our world. They rise and ebb like the tide. Think on this, and you will no longer desire revenge, only peace.” Necromancer, Diablo III, Blizzard, Bastion’s Keep Stronghold, (Small Boy) What a powerful quote from a video game. Many believe video games are a waste of time and resources….

BASIC MENTAL HEALTH TOOL

An important tool for communicating is, “I statements.” I feel _______ when (this happens / you say / you do ) I want _____ when ( “” “” “”) I need _____ when (“” “” “”) I statements allow for people who are open to listening, hear how you feel about a situation or need…