Depression feelings

I feel bogged down by exhaustion I feel better off alone. I feel I’m lost. I feel indecisive. I feel like a man lost at sea. I feel paranoid . I feel sad. I feel grief. I feel less joy from everything that gives me joy I feel an inability to be a self starter….

SLEEPLESS

Light fades from the world People fade into dreamland Staring at the ceiling in frustrated pastures, Counting endless sheep in sleepless fields.

BOXING WITH DEPRESSION

Melancholy hits harder than Mike Tyson on steroids taking pills disipates the useless musings that pit me against the world

REVENGE

“Death and life are forces of our world. They rise and ebb like the tide. Think on this, and you will no longer desire revenge, only peace.” Necromancer, Diablo III, Blizzard, Bastion’s Keep Stronghold, (Small Boy) What a powerful quote from a video game. Many believe video games are a waste of time and resources….

BASIC MENTAL HEALTH TOOL

An important tool for communicating is, “I statements.” I feel _______ when (this happens / you say / you do ) I want _____ when ( “” “” “”) I need _____ when (“” “” “”) I statements allow for people who are open to listening, hear how you feel about a situation or need…

UNDERSTANDING BI-POLAR SYMPTOMS

I have heard a lot of people say that, “I am bi-polar,” or “… depressed,” etc… Instead of defining the disease, they own it as a part of themselves. A better approach would be to say, “I have bi-polar,” etc… The ability to separate the two helps with self-esteem and first impressions. Negativity surrounds mental…

BIPOLAR HELL (A glimpse into uncontrolled symptoms)

(This poem is about how my bi-polar symptoms affected me before my doctors and I found the proper treatment for myself.) Tearing my heart out my chest, I look down into my hand, Beating heart, throbbing in time with my rage, Taking it out on myself, Raging in my thoughts, Destroying self, to be numb,…

CBT Group Ending Summary

Today marks the end of the 8 week CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) group I was attending. I will miss the group, it was an online group and different than any other group I’ve attended. I’ve led groups in all sorts of places, AA meetings, hospital wards, clinics, and meeting rooms. The best groups are always…

A Good Day Blog

With how often I feel the pains of depression and anxiety I want to take this moment to acknowledge that today is a good day. I feel at peace, I have a bit of happiness, and I am enjoying the day. I don’t feel manic, I don’t feel like life is passing at a thousand…

ANXIETY 2

Worry is such a harsh master, It saddles anxiety and rides it hard, What little control worry offers, Yet I’m always quick to worry, Letting it wreck my soul And carve its way into my mind, Taking over and carrying me on a journey, Often with crashing into walls of blank anxiety.