Some Real Thoughts

Trigger Warning – Sexual Assault, Violence, War Text below the photos, because this is a very serious blog post about serious issues that involve myself and traumatic events that happened to me and around me. Bootcamp Graduation Photo, here I was a RPSN, Ship (Class) 369. July to September 2000. Graduation Photo Merridian, MS Religious…

Exploring Options

I’ve recently reopened my dream folder on my computer and have had some interesting ideas spring forth. Before I can allow myself to feel comfortable with the dream, I need to explore why another model of it failed. We were successful in our mission. We excelled at peer to peer groups, financial assistance, and helping…

Not Interested

I’m not interested in financial success. I am interested in the voice of my work carrying hope and the reflection of a man on a recovery journey. I have published some collections and priced them; it is because I think there is value and a different audience. People who won’t take time to peruse a…

From the Well of Life

Deep in this well of pain, Slowly pulling myself up the walls, Foothold after handhold, Upwards, movement, towards the end, Far below the water churns with turbulance, Stones pull and fall away, Crashing below causing waves in, the pool of my emotional balance, Upwards, movement, towards the end, Handhold after foothold, Climbing out the well,…

By Your Side

Your news hit me and my wall came tumbling down, You lay there on the gurney, Calm and serene in chaos, Tubes and wires beeps echo through the passageways, IV hooked to life support, You lost to consciousness through all this effort, Holding your hand tightly a tear slips down, Fear churning inside, Questions and…

Steadfast

I stood against the wall, Steadfast and secure, Tide surged out carrying tears, Heart in hand, Looking across the sandy expanse, Life, here, Here I am again, On lonely shores, Full of cheer, Shouts of jubilee, Life flows journeying onwards.

An Insight into My Motivational Landscape

My views will not be normal, and they will depart from logical structure and lean into emotional reasoning. I’ve been thinking a lot about the journey across the churning river that held me back. It was a mixture of logic and emotions that were difficult to sort. So many moments created shock waves in my…

Sicily

The restaurant on the side of the road during wartime a couple decades ago.

Gave me a compliment

What’s the kindest thing someone has ever done for you? A lot of my life has been spent living in emotional pain from loneliness. In high school an English teacher I wasn’t even in class with would stop me in the hall and tell me I was doing a good job and to keep my…

The Job?

If the salary was the same, what job would you be doing right now and why? I think the job id want to get back into if it paid the same is a peer to peer specialist at the VA hospital leading groups based in recovery and support especially for trauma survivors with cptsd and…