Sunlight bites at my feet, Straining to open the curtians, Trapped in my minds bitter prision, All alone in a room full of people, Bitter illusion wastes my medicated mind, Standing on the edge, looking out, Seeing life pass me by, Complicated by invisible emotions, Saturated by hidden wounds, Scarred closed by times inevitable passing.
Tag: depression
COPING MECHANISMS, WHATS YOURS?
It amazes me how depression kills my creativity and productivity. I wanted to take a moment and thank anyone who views, likes, or follows what I create. You all encourage me through those dark times. I follow the advice of author Patrick Ruthfuss. He once said in a VLOG (paraphrased), ‘if you write something, write…
Delve Into Swinging Emotions: Exploring My Bipolar Symptoms
Today was a busy timeline of emotional swings. I felt anger, joy, sadness, free, hyper active, slow and dull, while being nervous and shaking from time to time. I’ve come to learn from this cycle that I may be on the upswing to become manic which with as bad as this emotional tornado has been…
PRISON OF THE ENDLESS
The lights turn on, Dank dark cell, releasing earthly smells, Assulting nostrils, clinging and seeping in deep, Tackling oppression, listening closely for agression, Bruises, yet no memory, Trapped in a prision, mind and body, Jagged insults float through stone passages, Loud painful roars of agony shriek up the tomb like stone, Crackling in ear, roaring…
SITS UPON A CHEST
Depression sits on the chest, As sinking swamp sucks in the wreckless, Justice served on interloping thoughts, Saddening, deepening, trembling free reality, Paradox in between knotted rows, Knitted into being by Destiny, Twisting us down undefined paths, Twisting our future and darkening our past, Depression sits on the chest.
Depression feelings
I feel bogged down by exhaustion I feel better off alone. I feel I’m lost. I feel indecisive. I feel like a man lost at sea. I feel paranoid . I feel sad. I feel grief. I feel less joy from everything that gives me joy I feel an inability to be a self starter….
BOXING WITH DEPRESSION
Melancholy hits harder than Mike Tyson on steroids taking pills disipates the useless musings that pit me against the world
REVENGE
“Death and life are forces of our world. They rise and ebb like the tide. Think on this, and you will no longer desire revenge, only peace.” Necromancer, Diablo III, Blizzard, Bastion’s Keep Stronghold, (Small Boy) What a powerful quote from a video game. Many believe video games are a waste of time and resources….
UNDERSTANDING BI-POLAR SYMPTOMS
I have heard a lot of people say that, “I am bi-polar,” or “… depressed,” etc… Instead of defining the disease, they own it as a part of themselves. A better approach would be to say, “I have bi-polar,” etc… The ability to separate the two helps with self-esteem and first impressions. Negativity surrounds mental…
BIPOLAR HELL (A glimpse into uncontrolled symptoms)
(This poem is about how my bi-polar symptoms affected me before my doctors and I found the proper treatment for myself.) Tearing my heart out my chest, I look down into my hand, Beating heart, throbbing in time with my rage, Taking it out on myself, Raging in my thoughts, Destroying self, to be numb,…
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