Maturity shines through my smile, Today I stepped out into the sun, It wasn’t a gray day anymore, Today my life has a reason to smile, I’m surrounded by friends, Near me is my love, Next to me after is my dog, You are always close, friends, A bit of this and a lot of…
Tag: mania
Devastated
So mad inside, Anger burning brighter than ultra violet, Inside turmoil, Violet light shining bright, Bringing with it the devastation, Weeping for hurt after hurt, Devastation rocks my world, Hurt bringing forth tears.
Spinning Cycles
Heart and guts on the table, Tears and eyes crying wide shut, Outside thrusts inside, While life spins insanely, Circles turn while cycles repeat, Ultimate sacrifice set before the gods, Insanity run wild as a beast in the field, Tearing through life, Charging at the ones once loved, Anger flows while fear overflows, Tears, tons…
Dreaming?
Inside I sit by myself, Starting a conversation, Whispering quiet like, Hoping for inspiration, Inside I die a little, As the dye runs down the pad, Watching as it soaks in, Much like Lillie Pads on the pond, All life drowns, As I look down, Seeing the many eyes floating around, Staring back at my…
Bi-polar, the cruelest of mistresses
With twisted heart I write, Deep in thought, Desire to be happy exists, Where sadness rests, Anxiety drives the wheel, While I drift over each curved line with glee, Boundaries I set drift far from my sight, As I engage life on dangerous roads, Alleys that should be left in the dark, I roam in…
Bi-Polar Out of Control
***Trigger Warning*** (Bi-Polar Psychosis, Mania, Depression, Suicide, Hospital Stay, Divorce, LGBTQ+) I remember the first ER visit. How scared everyone was and how much of a euphoric high my emotions had me on. I saw a quote from Ozzy Osborn recently that explained it, (paraphrased) “I was so out of control and I thought I…
First Time I Noticed My Mental Health
This will be short. I often try to identify when things started to go askew in my mind. I remember at the age of 10 having a strong realization of how alone I was. It was an extremally powerful emotion that I had to work through in the moment. The feeling was validated for years…
Dream Like State
Slow down, hold onto me, Everything’s a downer, taking downers, Slipping down dreams, Like playing chutes and ladders, Climbing to high places, Sitting high watching the colors float, Boats drifting down, As we row, row, row, Row your boat, Down channels, Changing channels, hearing beat after beat, Attack the ear lobes, Ear drums making beats,…
Cycle After Cycle, Still Drowning
Broke man, poor pockets, still giving till the end, Jacket there, last twenty here, Living life to the fullest, Blasting music, riding wild down country roads, Drinking till five in the morn, Mourning deep loss, unspoken pain, Drown’n in a bottle, Floating around, alcoholic circles, Regular at the bar, Passing out as many cigs as…
