Sitting here full of contemplations, Mind ticking through file after file, Stacks of discarded memories hover, Floating about the ethereal regions of far off memory, Grasping at strings, Attempting to fill the gaps with empty boxes, Imaginative speculations leading to paranoid delusions, This or that, tit for tat, Crazily spelunking down cavern walls, Deeper into…
Tag: depression
Friends Hand in Hand
Maturity shines through my smile, Today I stepped out into the sun, It wasn’t a gray day anymore, Today my life has a reason to smile, I’m surrounded by friends, Near me is my love, Next to me after is my dog, You are always close, friends, A bit of this and a lot of…
Old Haze
Old haze visits these days, Spaced out on meds, Returning to normal routine, Old haze visits these days, Feeling the pull of lethargy, Feeling the push of sleepy hollow, Old haze visits these days, Restful and whimsical dreams, Fill hollow between the ear balls, Old haze visits these days.
I’m having a rough time
My partner has a lot of health issues which give me pause to ponder many questions. How do I support them? How can I help them experience their bucket list? How do I care for myself? How can I make every transition easier for us? What do we both need to remain comfortable? Who can…
Watching experience
With life’s end so close at hand, Watching you experience, Life is like counting rubies, You are the gem of Gods eye, Each experience a moment locked forever, In my memory, To carry me through the, Rough oceans of my own time.
I Never Learned Who I Was Back Then…
TRIGGER WARNING: Self Harm, Racism, Drug Use, Violence, Bullying, Abuse, Neglect
>Forest of My Mind<
I feel as if I am in a bubble that holds my mind and spirit outwardly from my body. Looking within I see the emotions churn and broil. Roasting away under the heat aggression of anger and rage, the emotions slowly dry, crumbling to the dust of regret and wasted effort. Inward, searching the crevices’…
We’re All Alone
Looking at myself now, Long held down by the machines, My brain set out to construct, Lost myself between the circitry, Inside a narcistic existance, Buried deeper a soft exterior, Unexposed by the walls of fear, Holding back the world so near, Feeling the crumbling cracks, Myself I, me alone in this concrete hall, Exposed,…
Forgotten Self
Escape, retreat down the regretful halls, Escape, enter into the realm of mystic, Escape, me, I, self, want, desire, Let go, Free, myself of the bond, Free, myself of the chain, Free, myself of the memories, Let go, Drift, away from me thou foul dirty whispers, Drift, away from me thou horrible tool of self…
Project
So many unfinished projects laying about, clustering my office with their frizzy voices all screaming, “finish me, finish me… finish me!” Inside my head another voice rings out, “lazy, unproductive, product of depression, and utterly useless.” Then at times despite feeling out of control, lazy, useless, depressed, I have to make a 180 and help…
