I stood today on the buildings ledge, Looking into eternity, Down that long fall into nonexistence, Don’t know who I am anymore, Don’t know what to do, Don’t know where to go from here, Looking down that ledge, I see the end, I see the pain wash away, Yet, yet I still hear the call,…
Tag: depression
Spinning Cycles
Heart and guts on the table, Tears and eyes crying wide shut, Outside thrusts inside, While life spins insanely, Circles turn while cycles repeat, Ultimate sacrifice set before the gods, Insanity run wild as a beast in the field, Tearing through life, Charging at the ones once loved, Anger flows while fear overflows, Tears, tons…
Walking Memories of Despair
In the darkness my thoughts gathered, Tides pushed aside by gravitational forces, Moonlight pushing against them, Forces gathering inside, amused at the plight, Inside the torment slowly gathered stregnth, Assaulting the shores of sanity with greater might, Fighting back the fears, tortured thoughts which come with malice, Stabbing at the eyes of the seeing, While…
Dreaming?
Inside I sit by myself, Starting a conversation, Whispering quiet like, Hoping for inspiration, Inside I die a little, As the dye runs down the pad, Watching as it soaks in, Much like Lillie Pads on the pond, All life drowns, As I look down, Seeing the many eyes floating around, Staring back at my…
Black Hole Eye
Falling down hole after hole, Running forward through hallway after hallway, Journey to nowhere, finding myself passing everywhere, Catching myself falling forward into a spinning circle, Eternal circle of unlimited reality, Reaching infinity, falling through the stars, Shining bright as circles of gravity grab at the body, Pulling, Tearing, Pushing, Grabbing, Forcing, Through the walls…
Bad Dream
Decisions looking me in the face, Sacs under the eyes, Smoke, caffeinated stain teeth smiling back at me, Coffee junkie, searching for the next twinkie, Depression stained face, Tear ducts cemented shut, While I try to cry, Shouting into the atmosphere, Hitting wall after wall, Full speed accident waiting to happen, Where, when, why, what…
Preparing for a New Feast
A window closed, Curtains contain the foggy exterior, Inside an empty house I stand, Now ready to expand and grow, Sludge hammer in hand, I begin the renovations, While memories and depression pound at my door, I paint and decorate, Filling each room with unique life, Dancing about on happiness, While singing with the morning…
Bi-polar, the cruelest of mistresses
With twisted heart I write, Deep in thought, Desire to be happy exists, Where sadness rests, Anxiety drives the wheel, While I drift over each curved line with glee, Boundaries I set drift far from my sight, As I engage life on dangerous roads, Alleys that should be left in the dark, I roam in…
Hello 2023
Well another year has passed us by successfully. I have to say I didn’t meet many of my goals for the year. Being surrounded by so much chaos, including the loss of dearly beloved family members and the closing of more than a few friendships. Despite any anger or frustration I don’t regret the time…
Life and Its Doorways
Standing still in doorways, I fear to enter, So many I have entered before, Self hatred tearing at my back, Unknown urging agnst, Butterflies surge forth, Escaping and fluttering about, Standing in wonder at the doorway, Looking in, wondering, What’s in store for me, My choice to move paralyzes me, Standing still I cannot move,…
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