Some things I did positive in my life last week. I bought a few upgrades to the house. I started perfecting a part of a composition I am working on completing. I did part or all of the dishes every day. I did part or all of the laundry every day. I am embarrassed this…
Tag: depression
None of Them, a open hearted delve into why Christianity is not for me.
All the religious exploration has been done with open heart and mind. I really wanted it to be real. I desired to be embraced. The need to experience love has remained a longing all my life. Christianity caused me many traumatic moments throughout my life. I remember being yelled at and embarrassed at the age…
No Belonging
Here I am, Sitting here listening, Hypocrisy, The basis for the beginning and middle of my life, Christianity hysterity, All law, no love, All sin, no pleasure, All hate, no embracure, Never loved, never once, Always judged, Was I, I didn’t walk away, I never belonged.
Stuck
Time a ropes slope to a horizontal line equaling infinity, Tripping down the path of everlasting jaw breakers, Break, break apart, Break, break apart, Digging deep inside, pulling the feelings out, Sherlocks glass spending eons perceptualizing the emotional fragility held inside, of me, Inside, Inside of me, In me, Eating away inside of me, Twisting,…
Devastated
So mad inside, Anger burning brighter than ultra violet, Inside turmoil, Violet light shining bright, Bringing with it the devastation, Weeping for hurt after hurt, Devastation rocks my world, Hurt bringing forth tears.
A Tale That Led to Happiness.
Realization is anything but beautification, It all comes with a price more expensive than daily sacrifice, Sick, standing at the edge, Looking over feeling belly bulge, Down below an end, Is it my end? Step forward and find out, Whispers the voice of my out, Stay and find out, Whispers the voice against out, Two…
Look into My Mirror
Twisted disguise covers my muse, Is it pain, Or, that which amuse, Could it be broken glass, Shredding, cutting leaving the soul, In degraded pain? Looking past tattered soul, Among the mirrored looking glass, Which continues the window of pain, Showing trapped soul, An embodiment of young lad rolling in grass, Who is now a…
Breathing in the Throws of Emergency
Inward, outward, life exists in this moment, Foggy glass tells the story, As misty fog envelops the fingers trail, Drawing through each misty breath, The image of each moment, Drifting along imaginations limitless bounds, On stretcher looking upwards, Concern etched on faces, Beep, beep, beep, the monitor speaks my souls output, Each passing second a…
Wishes Don’t Fix A Thing
I will never get back that time, Those years I wish I had, To be present with them I missed them so, Now they are grown, They don’t know who I am, How much I love them, Is lost to explanations of why I wasn’t there, Present with them, Oh, how I wish I could…
