I feel as if I am in a bubble that holds my mind and spirit outwardly from my body. Looking within I see the emotions churn and broil. Roasting away under the heat aggression of anger and rage, the emotions slowly dry, crumbling to the dust of regret and wasted effort. Inward, searching the crevices’…
Tag: depression
We’re All Alone
Looking at myself now, Long held down by the machines, My brain set out to construct, Lost myself between the circitry, Inside a narcistic existance, Buried deeper a soft exterior, Unexposed by the walls of fear, Holding back the world so near, Feeling the crumbling cracks, Myself I, me alone in this concrete hall, Exposed,…
Forgotten Self
Escape, retreat down the regretful halls, Escape, enter into the realm of mystic, Escape, me, I, self, want, desire, Let go, Free, myself of the bond, Free, myself of the chain, Free, myself of the memories, Let go, Drift, away from me thou foul dirty whispers, Drift, away from me thou horrible tool of self…
Project
So many unfinished projects laying about, clustering my office with their frizzy voices all screaming, “finish me, finish me… finish me!” Inside my head another voice rings out, “lazy, unproductive, product of depression, and utterly useless.” Then at times despite feeling out of control, lazy, useless, depressed, I have to make a 180 and help…
Oh How Hard It Is To Not minimize.
Some things I did positive in my life last week. I bought a few upgrades to the house. I started perfecting a part of a composition I am working on completing. I did part or all of the dishes every day. I did part or all of the laundry every day. I am embarrassed this…
None of Them, a open hearted delve into why Christianity is not for me.
All the religious exploration has been done with open heart and mind. I really wanted it to be real. I desired to be embraced. The need to experience love has remained a longing all my life. Christianity caused me many traumatic moments throughout my life. I remember being yelled at and embarrassed at the age…
No Belonging
Here I am, Sitting here listening, Hypocrisy, The basis for the beginning and middle of my life, Christianity hysterity, All law, no love, All sin, no pleasure, All hate, no embracure, Never loved, never once, Always judged, Was I, I didn’t walk away, I never belonged.
Stuck
Time a ropes slope to a horizontal line equaling infinity, Tripping down the path of everlasting jaw breakers, Break, break apart, Break, break apart, Digging deep inside, pulling the feelings out, Sherlocks glass spending eons perceptualizing the emotional fragility held inside, of me, Inside, Inside of me, In me, Eating away inside of me, Twisting,…
Devastated
So mad inside, Anger burning brighter than ultra violet, Inside turmoil, Violet light shining bright, Bringing with it the devastation, Weeping for hurt after hurt, Devastation rocks my world, Hurt bringing forth tears.
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