Last night I was hit with a huge anxiety episode. Stress of life in this pandemic world seems to hit like a wrecking ball from time to time. One string of hope that I hold onto is my faith. Its a light at the end of the tunnel, its also a light that currently exists…
Tag: depression
Feeling Happy
It feels good to be out of the depressed slump I found myself stuck in for the past month. I had a friend who was very kind and voiced her concern for my mental health. The feeling that someone cared helped pull me out. It was like a hand reaching into the water and pulling…
CBT: ACKNOWLEDGING THE GOOD I DO.
Today I sit back and try something new. I think back to my accomplishments and compliment myself on a job well done. Its difficult for me, but its good to acknowledge the good I’ve done in this world. My brain loves to whisper my failures, and they eat away at my soul. By complimenting myself,…
PRACTICING CBT
Perception is a key used to unlock many thoughts. Especially, it unlocks how one perceives their own actions; future, past, present, and encourages a range of emotions. Those thoughts and emotions manifest themselves in numerous ways, rarely neutral, most of the time positive or negative. “I’m such a dork,” after bungling to flirt; or, “I…
SUZIE, A DOGS TAIL
Today has been a tough day. My eldest dog, Suzie for the past month has been having breathing issues. I have no clue why I hadn’t heard it until last night, maybe some unconcious effort to sweep it under the rug. I can’t even comprehend the emotions I am having. I love her with all…
MY EXPERIENCE ON SOCIAL MEDIA HAS BEEN ROTTEN
It has been two weeks since I logged into any social media account of mine and the freedom I feel is almost overwhelming me. I didn’t realize how entrapped I was in the social agendas. The negativity filter is slowly lifting from my mind. Somehow I got entangled in the drama, what did this social…
JOURNEY
Going this journey alone is becoming a swamp of no return Lost in the brush or stuck in the mud I become Each days journey never ending even when the sun winds down Endless hours toiled with no harvest from the soil Empty promises shrill in empty ears and hallow halls Eyes sunken and shallow,…
Scarred Wounds
Sitting alone in a sunlit room I gather my thoughts into a loom Weaving possibilities, hopes, dream, & ambitions Doing my best to avoid the feeling of impending doom & gloom That so often overtakes me about noon I do by my best to avoid it because it will be here soon To tease me…
(ABC)’S OF CBT
This is a fictional work through of the ABC. The idea was brought up during my CBT group. This is my take of how to use CBT for myself. I understand there are minor differences, even an error here or there, but I’m learning & blogging this so I can see where I was 5…
DEPARTING DEPRESSION
Carrying around depression is one of the most difficult burdens one may have during life. For some it lasts only a few days or weeks of their lives. For others its an ongoing battle that rages for years, if not their entire life. Unfortunatly I fall into the later category, diagnosed with Bi-Polar I struggle…
