It has been two weeks since I started attending a CBT group online. We haven’t covered much, but the little bits we have learned has touched many of our issues. This week’s topic was negative thinking patterns and how depression distorts our thinking & self beliefs. My memories for instance are distorted by depression. I…
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SETTING GOALS TO COMBAT MELANCHOLY
Melancholy is by far the worst emotion I’ve felt other than grief. Recently I’ve started to attend another Cognitive Behavior Therapy group. Our first homework assignment was to write down how depression has affected our lives and to set five goals we would like to see our treatment help with. Goals: To improve and increase…
MUSING OVER DEPRESSION
Why does depression have to grip a person when they least want it too? Why does stress decimate a person with depression? Why does anger live in the mind of a depressed person? Why does depression ruin lives? Is depression normal? Aren’t all human beings born with some oddness? What makes depression so scary? How…
INSTABILITY
Where do American’s turn when censorship hover’s above them, Afraid to say words like boob or suicide, When they are so important to the conversation. How do we wade through events and situations if we cannot express ideas, Even if those ideas may be askew? People are dying, sickened, and darkened, by how the bug…
A New Journey
Three months ago I set off on a new chapter of life. I’m learning a lot about myself and enjoying the benefits of my move. Doctors have changed, material stuff has been donated to charity, a new roof over my head, enrollment in a new day program, and a lot of company. Depression and anxiety…
Acceptance
Learning what I value in life and studying how I’ve strayed from my own values has helped me understand where some of my depression comes from. I am accepting that I’m flawed and unable to manipulate my past to my own advantage. Coming to terms with who I am, learning the true meaning of being…
Recovery
Recovery is a long process of traversing valleys and mountains. When I start climbing my mountains I have a choice to use the tools that I’ve earned through therapy and life lessons, or to climb it using my own devices. Devices being depression, self-doubt, pity, low self-esteem, anger, and self-abuse through talking down about myself. …
Recovery Story
Yesterday I was faced with an interesting perspective of my life. Ten years ago last month I was diagnosed with four conditions, their implications life altering. Psychotic Disorder NOS, Borderline Schtizotypal, Majorly Depressed, & Personality Disorder NOS. I was handed a couple bottles of pills, not even told good luck, and sent on my way…
Pulling Myself Out Of A Slump
Up until Monday I felt really blue. My depression raged and put me into a deep slump. I felt pain for past events, fear for current events, and anger at different situations. I can pin point each thought that brought my mood down. Even though I am aware that past events can’t be changed and…
Where I Was, Where I Am
Depression has been a thorn in my side since I was a preteen. I remember starting to feel depressions effects as early as ten years old. I don’t know if anyone noticed, or if anyone knew how to help. I dealt with depression silently because the one time I tried to get help I was…
