Depression sits on the chest, As sinking swamp sucks in the wreckless, Justice served on interloping thoughts, Saddening, deepening, trembling free reality, Paradox in between knotted rows, Knitted into being by Destiny, Twisting us down undefined paths, Twisting our future and darkening our past, Depression sits on the chest.
Tag: bipolar
Depression feelings
I feel bogged down by exhaustion I feel better off alone. I feel I’m lost. I feel indecisive. I feel like a man lost at sea. I feel paranoid . I feel sad. I feel grief. I feel less joy from everything that gives me joy I feel an inability to be a self starter….
SLEEPLESS
Light fades from the world People fade into dreamland Staring at the ceiling in frustrated pastures, Counting endless sheep in sleepless fields.
BIPOLAR HELL (A glimpse into uncontrolled symptoms)
(This poem is about how my bi-polar symptoms affected me before my doctors and I found the proper treatment for myself.) Tearing my heart out my chest, I look down into my hand, Beating heart, throbbing in time with my rage, Taking it out on myself, Raging in my thoughts, Destroying self, to be numb,…
JOURNEY
Going this journey alone is becoming a swamp of no return Lost in the brush or stuck in the mud I become Each days journey never ending even when the sun winds down Endless hours toiled with no harvest from the soil Empty promises shrill in empty ears and hallow halls Eyes sunken and shallow,…
Scarred Wounds
Sitting alone in a sunlit room I gather my thoughts into a loom Weaving possibilities, hopes, dream, & ambitions Doing my best to avoid the feeling of impending doom & gloom That so often overtakes me about noon I do by my best to avoid it because it will be here soon To tease me…
(ABC)’S OF CBT
This is a fictional work through of the ABC. The idea was brought up during my CBT group. This is my take of how to use CBT for myself. I understand there are minor differences, even an error here or there, but I’m learning & blogging this so I can see where I was 5…
DEPARTING DEPRESSION
Carrying around depression is one of the most difficult burdens one may have during life. For some it lasts only a few days or weeks of their lives. For others its an ongoing battle that rages for years, if not their entire life. Unfortunatly I fall into the later category, diagnosed with Bi-Polar I struggle…
CBT: Cognitive Behavior Therapy
It has been two weeks since I started attending a CBT group online. We haven’t covered much, but the little bits we have learned has touched many of our issues. This week’s topic was negative thinking patterns and how depression distorts our thinking & self beliefs. My memories for instance are distorted by depression. I…
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