Falling down hole after hole, Running forward through hallway after hallway, Journey to nowhere, finding myself passing everywhere, Catching myself falling forward into a spinning circle, Eternal circle of unlimited reality, Reaching infinity, falling through the stars, Shining bright as circles of gravity grab at the body, Pulling, Tearing, Pushing, Grabbing, Forcing, Through the walls…
Tag: bipolar
Bad Dream
Decisions looking me in the face, Sacs under the eyes, Smoke, caffeinated stain teeth smiling back at me, Coffee junkie, searching for the next twinkie, Depression stained face, Tear ducts cemented shut, While I try to cry, Shouting into the atmosphere, Hitting wall after wall, Full speed accident waiting to happen, Where, when, why, what…
Preparing for a New Feast
A window closed, Curtains contain the foggy exterior, Inside an empty house I stand, Now ready to expand and grow, Sludge hammer in hand, I begin the renovations, While memories and depression pound at my door, I paint and decorate, Filling each room with unique life, Dancing about on happiness, While singing with the morning…
ANGER
Moral digression into madness Nothing stands in place as it distresses, The madness within, Pounding to win, Madness driving whirlwind, As violence descends, Take out the matches, Burn down the fortress, Demonstrate the anger, Live the danger, Break off the edge, Break off the edge, Mass destruction threatens, and frightens, Life as we know it,…
Hello 2023
Well another year has passed us by successfully. I have to say I didn’t meet many of my goals for the year. Being surrounded by so much chaos, including the loss of dearly beloved family members and the closing of more than a few friendships. Despite any anger or frustration I don’t regret the time…
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Fury, hate, hate, might, hate, hate, hate, love, love, love, love, love, Dig, dig with me, Happy, dig, dig in, I, AM HAPPY!!! Judgement, twisted, echo’s in my brain, Vibrating insulated voice. An exploration of my mental health tool boxes by attempting to understand the emotions behind rage.
Emotional Baggage
Off to the side I sit Idly by watching time Pass by my side as I Attempt to persuade Guardian Angels to untie My bounds that hold me Prisoner to this idle body Lazy, full of pride My eyes glazed over with envy For the riches of others As I sun away in jealousy Of…
Decisions
Emotions attacked me, Two handed, single coin, Flip to dare, Each life a different stage, Each a hazardous lane, Choices chase me, Day dreaming, day and night, Sleep avoiding me, In my mental fight.
Dream Like State
Slow down, hold onto me, Everything’s a downer, taking downers, Slipping down dreams, Like playing chutes and ladders, Climbing to high places, Sitting high watching the colors float, Boats drifting down, As we row, row, row, Row your boat, Down channels, Changing channels, hearing beat after beat, Attack the ear lobes, Ear drums making beats,…
Tears Inside
Tears fall inside, Silence surrounds screaming, Tearing apart the photo album, Inside, all inside, Alone, inside, screaming inside, No one knows, No one hears, No one see’s, The dreams, haunting dreams, Ghosts of memories, haunting me, Screaming in agony, inside, Silent all around, Inside pain erupts, Agony, constant agony, No one to hear, No one…
