DEEP SEA FISHING WITH MY UNCLE & COUSIN

It was a breezy Pensacola moonlit Florida morning. We all pilled into Uncle Tom’s SUV and drove to the docks where our chartered fishing boat, crew, and Captain waited for us. We loaded up and were puttering down the bay’s narrow docking canals towards open waters. Eventually we’d be sixty kilometers from shore fishing and…

TIME IN AFRICA

I spent six months in Africa as a United States Sailor as an enlisted E-5. My profession at the time was as a Religious Program Specialist, (RP2). I served with the Fleet Marine Force as part of the Joint Task Force: Horn of Africa. We were stationed out of Camp Lemonier in Djibouti. At the…

Reminiscing

The joy of discovering life beyond screens has filled me with nostalgia for the 80’s & 90’s. One of the last generations to grow up without ready access to computers, cell phones, and internet we got to see life: live, up-close, & personal. We talked to friends and our texting consisted of passing hand written…

Scheduling

The military taught me to be fifteen minutes early to be on time.  It also taught me that the day should be broken up into time slotted events.  If the plan of the day was broken in any way the mission would be put off schedule and someone would be in trouble. These habits carried…

Recovery Story

Yesterday I was faced with an interesting perspective of my life.  Ten years ago last month I was diagnosed with four conditions, their implications life altering.  Psychotic Disorder NOS, Borderline Schtizotypal, Majorly Depressed, & Personality Disorder NOS.  I was handed a couple bottles of pills, not even told good luck, and sent on my way…

Where I Was, Where I Am

Depression has been a thorn in my side since I was a preteen.  I remember starting to feel depressions effects as early as ten years old.  I don’t know if anyone noticed, or if anyone knew how to help.  I dealt with depression silently because the one time I tried to get help I was…

Trying To Get Back On Track

Taking care of Charlie my ivy plant really helps me start my day off right.  Having a task to do sets my mind in order for other things I need to do throughout the day.  The reason this is important is because lately I’ve lost track of myself.  My days are disordered and unscheduled. I…

Thinking Out A Project

Raw emotion is a dangerous tool for me.  Emotion is the basis of my creativity.  My art is dependent on the mood I am in.  My mind uses my mood as a palate and my hand as a tool. Today I am angry, torn, depressed, and enraged.  I feel like taking a pastel or tube…

Burning Santa

Fourth of July is a great holiday filled with many joys.  Campfires, marshmallows, hotdogs, and fireworks give us these joys.  Today we celebrated our love for America’s independence and our dislike for how greed has taken over the holiday season in December.  We protested by burning a wooden placard of Santa.  As it went up…

Encouraging Myself at the End of the Month

The day before pay day always has the most unique meals.  Scrounging around the cabinet, going through the can food items, piecing together different foods that go together.  It is really fun sometimes trying out the combinations that come out of the cabinets.  Today’s meal was canned salmon mixed with Montreal seasoning and sriracha sauce,…