From the Well of Life

Deep in this well of pain, Slowly pulling myself up the walls, Foothold after handhold, Upwards, movement, towards the end, Far below the water churns with turbulance, Stones pull and fall away, Crashing below causing waves in, the pool of my emotional balance, Upwards, movement, towards the end, Handhold after foothold, Climbing out the well,…

Steadfast

I stood against the wall, Steadfast and secure, Tide surged out carrying tears, Heart in hand, Looking across the sandy expanse, Life, here, Here I am again, On lonely shores, Full of cheer, Shouts of jubilee, Life flows journeying onwards.

The Job?

If the salary was the same, what job would you be doing right now and why? I think the job id want to get back into if it paid the same is a peer to peer specialist at the VA hospital leading groups based in recovery and support especially for trauma survivors with cptsd and…

Reds Army

I found this cool concept of creating a cast of characters while studying other cartoonist.

Contemplations

Sitting here full of contemplations, Mind ticking through file after file, Stacks of discarded memories hover, Floating about the ethereal regions of far off memory, Grasping at strings, Attempting to fill the gaps with empty boxes, Imaginative speculations leading to paranoid delusions, This or that, tit for tat, Crazily spelunking down cavern walls, Deeper into…

Old Haze

Old haze visits these days, Spaced out on meds, Returning to normal routine, Old haze visits these days, Feeling the pull of lethargy, Feeling the push of sleepy hollow, Old haze visits these days, Restful and whimsical dreams, Fill hollow between the ear balls, Old haze visits these days.

Another Life

Lost a life, Gained life, Lost more life, Gained life. Lost another life, This time had to buckle down, Hit hard in the gut, Change a Demon, Eyes glowing yellow, Red dots of hell inside, Mind lost control, Body in chaos, Heart crashing overboard, Gripping the hull, Watching shore develop, Dreams abound, A life yet…

CBT Group Ending Summary

Today marks the end of the 8 week CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) group I was attending. I will miss the group, it was an online group and different than any other group I’ve attended. I’ve led groups in all sorts of places, AA meetings, hospital wards, clinics, and meeting rooms. The best groups are always…

CBT: ACKNOWLEDGING THE GOOD I DO.

Today I sit back and try something new. I think back to my accomplishments and compliment myself on a job well done. Its difficult for me, but its good to acknowledge the good I’ve done in this world. My brain loves to whisper my failures, and they eat away at my soul. By complimenting myself,…

PRACTICING CBT

Perception is a key used to unlock many thoughts. Especially, it unlocks how one perceives their own actions; future, past, present, and encourages a range of emotions. Those thoughts and emotions manifest themselves in numerous ways, rarely neutral, most of the time positive or negative. “I’m such a dork,” after bungling to flirt; or, “I…