Life and Its Doorways

Standing still in doorways, I fear to enter, So many I have entered before, Self hatred tearing at my back, Unknown urging agnst, Butterflies surge forth, Escaping and fluttering about, Standing in wonder at the doorway, Looking in, wondering, What’s in store for me, My choice to move paralyzes me, Standing still I cannot move,…

Homebound Battlefear

Hearts won minds turned chemical burned, Hero’s march home, war and dreams, Constant reward, images burned, wounds inflicted, Mind confounded and infected by nightmares, Can’t sleep, media a constant reminder, War a reality nuclear vision blur, Fear gripping heart, reality tilting heart, Hearts and minds, minds and hearts, Winning hearts and minds, lost, lost, Hope…

F*****g Bi-Polar Rage

I have Bi-polar Disorder and there are times like tonight where I suffer from severe rage. It triggers from little things, the most unimportant, trivial, nuances of life. I work so hard to control it. Tonight, I feel about to lose that control. So here I am writing about it, hoping to gain control back and to be the strong man I am.

On the Other Side of the Morrow

Live for tomorrow, Burying your head in the future, Call son, come as you are, Into the land to be, Remove your helmet, Here have a beer, Sit with me, Set your feet up, There you go son, Let go, Live for tomorrow, Feel the breeze that hits you, That is future’s fan fare, The…

Decisions

Emotions attacked me, Two handed, single coin, Flip to dare, Each life a different stage, Each a hazardous lane, Choices chase me, Day dreaming, day and night, Sleep avoiding me, In my mental fight.

Dream Like State

Slow down, hold onto me, Everything’s a downer, taking downers, Slipping down dreams, Like playing chutes and ladders, Climbing to high places, Sitting high watching the colors float, Boats drifting down, As we row, row, row, Row your boat, Down channels, Changing channels, hearing beat after beat, Attack the ear lobes, Ear drums making beats,…

Cycle After Cycle, Still Drowning

Broke man, poor pockets, still giving till the end, Jacket there, last twenty here, Living life to the fullest, Blasting music, riding wild down country roads, Drinking till five in the morn, Mourning deep loss, unspoken pain, Drown’n in a bottle, Floating around, alcoholic circles, Regular at the bar, Passing out as many cigs as…

Tears Inside

Tears fall inside, Silence surrounds screaming, Tearing apart the photo album, Inside, all inside, Alone, inside, screaming inside, No one knows, No one hears, No one see’s, The dreams, haunting dreams, Ghosts of memories, haunting me, Screaming in agony, inside, Silent all around, Inside pain erupts, Agony, constant agony, No one to hear, No one…

No Good Journey

Off to the track, dollar bill, highest sum in the pocket, Dog running, collar bare, illegally bought at local fare, Young man, running around, Tanned and built on the tred-mill, So ill, down with the local trend, driving that fast riding mare, Around and around, circle by circle, to the winners stand, First place medal…

No Pizza Pie

Twisted, contorted, little thought, Traveling on transistor radio, Airwaves humming, people singing, Media, mover of culture, Controlling life and styles, Singing to crying eyes, Giving little thought to teach and chalk, Making room for Cheech to talk, Chong to break out the water pipe, Draining, leeching the public, While Momma’s cry, Wasted, humiliated, left for…