All the religious exploration has been done with open heart and mind. I really wanted it to be real. I desired to be embraced. The need to experience love has remained a longing all my life. Christianity caused me many traumatic moments throughout my life. I remember being yelled at and embarrassed at the age of 5 because my friend and I didn’t understand how communion worked. My He-man and Thundercat action figures and toys were taken away then burned. I’ve been told I am going to hell for certain lifestyles or things I have done throughout my life. Religion has been used to control me. At one point I was made to believe I am demon possessed (to be honest I haven’t gotten over this one yet.) I worked with the worst people in religious circles, the most abusive, ignorant smart people, and greatly hypocritical religious characters. Do not as I do but as I say. Evangelical, Pentecostal, Mennonite, Agape, Non-Denominational, Baptist, Episcopal, Catholic, Methodist, and Greek Orthodox, I have experienced people and worked closely with them. Out of all of them, none of them, showed any love or empathy.