Old haze visits these days, Spaced out on meds, Returning to normal routine, Old haze visits these days, Feeling the pull of lethargy, Feeling the push of sleepy hollow, Old haze visits these days, Restful and whimsical dreams, Fill hollow between the ear balls, Old haze visits these days.
Tag: grief
I’m having a rough time
My partner has a lot of health issues which give me pause to ponder many questions. How do I support them? How can I help them experience their bucket list? How do I care for myself? How can I make every transition easier for us? What do we both need to remain comfortable? Who can…
Watching experience
With life’s end so close at hand, Watching you experience, Life is like counting rubies, You are the gem of Gods eye, Each experience a moment locked forever, In my memory, To carry me through the, Rough oceans of my own time.
Heart Abides Times Will
I hold your hand, The wrinkles a testament, To every moment in time, We held hands, Watching time pass by, Now I hold your hand, One last time, Locked eye to eye, A life well lived, Well loved, Well made for our souls, Spent another time, This time and a next time, Locked in the…
Death standoff
I face death after death, His cloak quick, Bone fingers rattling along the stair well, Running up stairs, Natures taken its course, Standing by grave, Your husband standing next, To his nee husband, As they lower you into the grave, Conflicted friend standing, Wishing he understood, Pushed away and gaslighted, While mourning the loss of…
Another Life
Lost a life, Gained life, Lost more life, Gained life. Lost another life, This time had to buckle down, Hit hard in the gut, Change a Demon, Eyes glowing yellow, Red dots of hell inside, Mind lost control, Body in chaos, Heart crashing overboard, Gripping the hull, Watching shore develop, Dreams abound, A life yet…
Oh How Hard It Is To Not minimize.
Some things I did positive in my life last week. I bought a few upgrades to the house. I started perfecting a part of a composition I am working on completing. I did part or all of the dishes every day. I did part or all of the laundry every day. I am embarrassed this…
Stuck
Time a ropes slope to a horizontal line equaling infinity, Tripping down the path of everlasting jaw breakers, Break, break apart, Break, break apart, Digging deep inside, pulling the feelings out, Sherlocks glass spending eons perceptualizing the emotional fragility held inside, of me, Inside, Inside of me, In me, Eating away inside of me, Twisting,…
Mad Mother
Knows whats it is like for five minutes to be a father, Knows whats it is like to have child torn away, Knows whats it is like to live ten minutes away, Knows whats it is like not having visiting rights, Knows whats it is like watching offspring grow up far away, Knows whats it…
Bad News on the Horizon
Sitting on the chest, Bad news inside, Delivery on the horizon, Waiting on the clock to tick by, Seconds turn to days, While living in a mental health haze, Wondering, what the future holds, Symptoms attack while fumbling in the dark, What else to do, But wait, each day, a horrible wait.
