I miss my Grandmother dearly. We were never close; but, never too far apart to know we loved each other very much. Her phone calls were short, always to the point. She had strong values and a stronger love for family. She anchored many ships in our family and now I see them adrift as…
Tag: grief
Morning Coffee: #4
Sipping coffee, listening to ‘Deep Cuts: A Perfect Circle – EP’ ~ Orestes (Demo) ~. What a perfect start to the morning. The pain still sits deep in my chest about my Grandmother’s passing; but, the sun shines around the darkest clouds. Bits of memories, cardinal birds, snowmen, winter holidays, and many table side dinners….
Morning Coffee: #3 Madre
Sitting quietly by my desk this morning I turned on some easy listening music. Slowly settling into the groove I slid out the construction paper and chalk. Casualy daydreaming about childhood memories of my Madre. I love her and often think of her sweet voice and smile. My beautiful Madre. Your tower was long ago…
Morning Coffee: #2
Goodmorning sunshine, what a wonderful day to smell coffee brewing. It’s cool outside, almost like having spring in Autumn. The only shade is my grandmother’s passing. My heart fills full of shards of glass, each a different emotion. Some pass easy, while others whittle away the flesh digging deeper until they hit bone. So, as…
Morning Coffee: #1 ‘Good Grief’
Today was an extremely hard day. Getting out of bed felt like dragging the moon across the sky. Gravity welded me the mattress while the sheets fed themselves around me as a Boa Constrictor would. Welled up inside my chest was a wall holding back the flood of tears. My grandmother passed yesterday and I…
Sadness weeps
Sadness sat in her corner, Lonely, dreaming of memories, Her Granny passed today, In the heart of merry May, Fantasizing about hazy days, Filled with bakery, Heart filled laughs, Never to be heard in now empty kitchens. Now Saddness weeps,
SUZIE, A DOGS TAIL
Today has been a tough day. My eldest dog, Suzie for the past month has been having breathing issues. I have no clue why I hadn’t heard it until last night, maybe some unconcious effort to sweep it under the rug. I can’t even comprehend the emotions I am having. I love her with all…
JOURNEY
Going this journey alone is becoming a swamp of no return Lost in the brush or stuck in the mud I become Each days journey never ending even when the sun winds down Endless hours toiled with no harvest from the soil Empty promises shrill in empty ears and hallow halls Eyes sunken and shallow,…
AN ODE TO THE DYING
Once you had much time to wine and dine, Now your life is shorter than a dime. When we gathered we laughed and acted like we had forever, Now we sit and reminisce on old memories and talk into the late hour. I look at you and think of your once healthy complexion, Now I…
MILLIONS OF PAPER, PAPER FOR ME, MILLIONS OF PAPER, PAPER FOR FREE…
Satisfaction is more than paper. Paper checks cashed don’t add up to emotional stability. Problems grow like the stack of holiday wrapping paper left for the recycle bin. On the opposite side of the celebration we find ourselves back in the race to earn more paper to meet next Decembers needs. Time zips by while…
