Falling down hole after hole, Running forward through hallway after hallway, Journey to nowhere, finding myself passing everywhere, Catching myself falling forward into a spinning circle, Eternal circle of unlimited reality, Reaching infinity, falling through the stars, Shining bright as circles of gravity grab at the body, Pulling, Tearing, Pushing, Grabbing, Forcing, Through the walls…
Tag: anxiety
Bad Dream
Decisions looking me in the face, Sacs under the eyes, Smoke, caffeinated stain teeth smiling back at me, Coffee junkie, searching for the next twinkie, Depression stained face, Tear ducts cemented shut, While I try to cry, Shouting into the atmosphere, Hitting wall after wall, Full speed accident waiting to happen, Where, when, why, what…
Preparing for a New Feast
A window closed, Curtains contain the foggy exterior, Inside an empty house I stand, Now ready to expand and grow, Sludge hammer in hand, I begin the renovations, While memories and depression pound at my door, I paint and decorate, Filling each room with unique life, Dancing about on happiness, While singing with the morning…
Bi-polar, the cruelest of mistresses
With twisted heart I write, Deep in thought, Desire to be happy exists, Where sadness rests, Anxiety drives the wheel, While I drift over each curved line with glee, Boundaries I set drift far from my sight, As I engage life on dangerous roads, Alleys that should be left in the dark, I roam in…
Life and Its Doorways
Standing still in doorways, I fear to enter, So many I have entered before, Self hatred tearing at my back, Unknown urging agnst, Butterflies surge forth, Escaping and fluttering about, Standing in wonder at the doorway, Looking in, wondering, What’s in store for me, My choice to move paralyzes me, Standing still I cannot move,…
Homebound Battlefear
Hearts won minds turned chemical burned, Hero’s march home, war and dreams, Constant reward, images burned, wounds inflicted, Mind confounded and infected by nightmares, Can’t sleep, media a constant reminder, War a reality nuclear vision blur, Fear gripping heart, reality tilting heart, Hearts and minds, minds and hearts, Winning hearts and minds, lost, lost, Hope…
F*****g Bi-Polar Rage
I have Bi-polar Disorder and there are times like tonight where I suffer from severe rage. It triggers from little things, the most unimportant, trivial, nuances of life. I work so hard to control it. Tonight, I feel about to lose that control. So here I am writing about it, hoping to gain control back and to be the strong man I am.
On the Other Side of the Morrow
Live for tomorrow, Burying your head in the future, Call son, come as you are, Into the land to be, Remove your helmet, Here have a beer, Sit with me, Set your feet up, There you go son, Let go, Live for tomorrow, Feel the breeze that hits you, That is future’s fan fare, The…
Decisions
Emotions attacked me, Two handed, single coin, Flip to dare, Each life a different stage, Each a hazardous lane, Choices chase me, Day dreaming, day and night, Sleep avoiding me, In my mental fight.
Dream Like State
Slow down, hold onto me, Everything’s a downer, taking downers, Slipping down dreams, Like playing chutes and ladders, Climbing to high places, Sitting high watching the colors float, Boats drifting down, As we row, row, row, Row your boat, Down channels, Changing channels, hearing beat after beat, Attack the ear lobes, Ear drums making beats,…
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