I feel as if I am in a bubble that holds my mind and spirit outwardly from my body. Looking within I see the emotions churn and broil. Roasting away under the heat aggression of anger and rage, the emotions slowly dry, crumbling to the dust of regret and wasted effort. Inward, searching the crevices’…
Category: Journal
Oh How Hard It Is To Not minimize.
Some things I did positive in my life last week. I bought a few upgrades to the house. I started perfecting a part of a composition I am working on completing. I did part or all of the dishes every day. I did part or all of the laundry every day. I am embarrassed this…
Depression feelings
I feel bogged down by exhaustion I feel better off alone. I feel I’m lost. I feel indecisive. I feel like a man lost at sea. I feel paranoid . I feel sad. I feel grief. I feel less joy from everything that gives me joy I feel an inability to be a self starter….
SETTING GOALS TO COMBAT MELANCHOLY
Melancholy is by far the worst emotion I’ve felt other than grief. Recently I’ve started to attend another Cognitive Behavior Therapy group. Our first homework assignment was to write down how depression has affected our lives and to set five goals we would like to see our treatment help with. Goals: To improve and increase…
Notes To Myself
I found a new tool that so far has helped me get through this weekend’s bought of depression. I took a stack of post-it notes and wrote compliments & positive I am statements about myself and stuck them on the doorways, windows, mirrors, and fridge of my apartment. I hung them at eye level so…
I Woke Up Today Feeling….
I Woke up feeling depressed today. This makes a solid week. Although I’ve had episodes of depression throughout the last several weeks, some lasting days or weeks. What I feel and do while being depressed: I have art class today but I have nothing in mind to create. I have a writing project I am…
Motivation Needed
I just keep putting off what I should be doing. Here is a list: Write Chapter 2 Finish Knitting 1st Side of Pillow Laundry Dust Clean Cabinets Grocery Shopping Making the Bed Vacuum Time to motivate myself to do something. I need to find some other creative energy than anger. I need a spark of…
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