SUZIE, A DOGS TAIL

Today has been a tough day. My eldest dog, Suzie for the past month has been having breathing issues. I have no clue why I hadn’t heard it until last night, maybe some unconcious effort to sweep it under the rug. I can’t even comprehend the emotions I am having. I love her with all…

100

This is a celebratory blog about reaching my goal of posting 100 blogs over the entire life of my blog this month. I’ve seen a huge boom of growth this month and I appreciate everyone who has stopped to view any part of my blog. I’ve even found a few blogs to follow closely. I…

(ABC)’S OF CBT

This is a fictional work through of the ABC. The idea was brought up during my CBT group. This is my take of how to use CBT for myself. I understand there are minor differences, even an error here or there, but I’m learning & blogging this so I can see where I was 5…

DEPARTING DEPRESSION

Carrying around depression is one of the most difficult burdens one may have during life. For some it lasts only a few days or weeks of their lives. For others its an ongoing battle that rages for years, if not their entire life. Unfortunatly I fall into the later category, diagnosed with Bi-Polar I struggle…

DEEP SEA FISHING WITH MY UNCLE & COUSIN

It was a breezy Pensacola moonlit Florida morning. We all pilled into Uncle Tom’s SUV and drove to the docks where our chartered fishing boat, crew, and Captain waited for us. We loaded up and were puttering down the bay’s narrow docking canals towards open waters. Eventually we’d be sixty kilometers from shore fishing and…

CBT: Cognitive Behavior Therapy

It has been two weeks since I started attending a CBT group online. We haven’t covered much, but the little bits we have learned has touched many of our issues. This week’s topic was negative thinking patterns and how depression distorts our thinking & self beliefs. My memories for instance are distorted by depression. I…

SETTING GOALS TO COMBAT MELANCHOLY

Melancholy is by far the worst emotion I’ve felt other than grief. Recently I’ve started to attend another Cognitive Behavior Therapy group. Our first homework assignment was to write down how depression has affected our lives and to set five goals we would like to see our treatment help with. Goals: To improve and increase…

STEPPING AWAY

I took a step away from my screen last week and felt alive for the first time in over a year. Reliance is not the reason I want to watch my screens. It was a shock how deep seated and hidden the reliance is. Boredom warns of it, but vast emptiness of time one concieves…

A New Journey

Three months ago I set off on a new chapter of life.  I’m learning a lot about myself and enjoying the benefits of my move.  Doctors have changed, material stuff has been donated to charity, a new roof over my head, enrollment in a new day program, and a lot of company.  Depression and anxiety…