Yesterday I was faced with an interesting perspective of my life. Ten years ago last month I was diagnosed with four conditions, their implications life altering. Psychotic Disorder NOS, Borderline Schtizotypal, Majorly Depressed, & Personality Disorder NOS. I was handed a couple bottles of pills, not even told good luck, and sent on my way…
Hiking Through VT
I started this sketch when I was hiking down a trail. Today I put the finishing touches on it. The small country baseball field sitting below the mountain range is testament to the Ol’ American past time. The mountain range was beautiful that day, the shadows played across the valleys and peaks. The trees were…
Anger, Depression, Wallow, Forgiveness
Anger over takes us quickly, Turns the mind rabid with desire, Striving to conquer and hold the higher ground, No, Anger does not let one see the tragedy, Nor the blood as one’s words sting like a rapier, It’s not until Anger leaves to let Depression and Wallow take over, That one feels the pain…
Building A Dungeon
I have a higher respect for game designers now that I have designed my own campaign in the ‘Dungeon Master’ (DM) option of the game ‘Sword Coast Legends’ a Dungeons & Dragons game for PC. The game is designed to let someone build their own ‘Non-Playable-Characters’ (NPC), monsters, bosses, hero’s, dungeons, towns, quests, and different…
Pulling Myself Out Of A Slump
Up until Monday I felt really blue. My depression raged and put me into a deep slump. I felt pain for past events, fear for current events, and anger at different situations. I can pin point each thought that brought my mood down. Even though I am aware that past events can’t be changed and…
I Created Something Beautiful
Today I worked up the motivation to go to art class and create a wonderful piece of art.
A Hike Through Northern Vermont
Once in a while I enjoy getting out onto the trail and going for an adventure. This is a photographic journal of one of them. When I go for a hike I always receive a rush emotion, a sense that I am small, and nostalgia for my childhood. I remember growing up in the mountains…
I Woke Up Today Feeling….
I Woke up feeling depressed today. This makes a solid week. Although I’ve had episodes of depression throughout the last several weeks, some lasting days or weeks. What I feel and do while being depressed: I have art class today but I have nothing in mind to create. I have a writing project I am…
Emotional Melody
An emotional hurt is like a song. It lingers in the heart like sweet music floating on the wind. The clashes and melodies drive hard the heart’s reaction. Twisting and flowing it brings emotions through a crescendo then a diminuendo. Till at long last, the song ends, and the baton settles. Then the silence fills…
Motivation Needed
I just keep putting off what I should be doing. Here is a list: Write Chapter 2 Finish Knitting 1st Side of Pillow Laundry Dust Clean Cabinets Grocery Shopping Making the Bed Vacuum Time to motivate myself to do something. I need to find some other creative energy than anger. I need a spark of…
