Falling down hole after hole, Running forward through hallway after hallway, Journey to nowhere, finding myself passing everywhere, Catching myself falling forward into a spinning circle, Eternal circle of unlimited reality, Reaching infinity, falling through the stars, Shining bright as circles of gravity grab at the body, Pulling, Tearing, Pushing, Grabbing, Forcing, Through the walls…
Category: bi-polar
My Love, Save Me
Upside down, rebuilding relationships, Hanging on the closets door, My cloak of despair awaits, Beckoning into isolation, Unknown destination ahead, Dead, I’m dead inside, Dead, I’m dead inside, I’m to blame, I’m to shame, What am I to do? Where am I to go? Despair, disdain, Dancing the walk of Cain, Cursed, Amore, My love,…
Preparing for a New Feast
A window closed, Curtains contain the foggy exterior, Inside an empty house I stand, Now ready to expand and grow, Sludge hammer in hand, I begin the renovations, While memories and depression pound at my door, I paint and decorate, Filling each room with unique life, Dancing about on happiness, While singing with the morning…
Bi-polar, the cruelest of mistresses
With twisted heart I write, Deep in thought, Desire to be happy exists, Where sadness rests, Anxiety drives the wheel, While I drift over each curved line with glee, Boundaries I set drift far from my sight, As I engage life on dangerous roads, Alleys that should be left in the dark, I roam in…
ANGER
Moral digression into madness Nothing stands in place as it distresses, The madness within, Pounding to win, Madness driving whirlwind, As violence descends, Take out the matches, Burn down the fortress, Demonstrate the anger, Live the danger, Break off the edge, Break off the edge, Mass destruction threatens, and frightens, Life as we know it,…
Life and Its Doorways
Standing still in doorways, I fear to enter, So many I have entered before, Self hatred tearing at my back, Unknown urging agnst, Butterflies surge forth, Escaping and fluttering about, Standing in wonder at the doorway, Looking in, wondering, What’s in store for me, My choice to move paralyzes me, Standing still I cannot move,…
Homebound Battlefear
Hearts won minds turned chemical burned, Hero’s march home, war and dreams, Constant reward, images burned, wounds inflicted, Mind confounded and infected by nightmares, Can’t sleep, media a constant reminder, War a reality nuclear vision blur, Fear gripping heart, reality tilting heart, Hearts and minds, minds and hearts, Winning hearts and minds, lost, lost, Hope…
Emotional Baggage
Off to the side I sit Idly by watching time Pass by my side as I Attempt to persuade Guardian Angels to untie My bounds that hold me Prisoner to this idle body Lazy, full of pride My eyes glazed over with envy For the riches of others As I sun away in jealousy Of…
Judging Rage
Look into my world, Hear my words, Swirl with me on the hurricane winds, Tear out my eyes, Eyes, unclean in the turbulance, Destruction looms over volatile hills, Crumbling mountain tops tilt, Georges swallowing me, Into the abyss I swirl, In the turbulent hell, Its swallows me. Violence and shame, Beating me into the ground,…
F*****g Bi-Polar Rage
I have Bi-polar Disorder and there are times like tonight where I suffer from severe rage. It triggers from little things, the most unimportant, trivial, nuances of life. I work so hard to control it. Tonight, I feel about to lose that control. So here I am writing about it, hoping to gain control back and to be the strong man I am.
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